Pieces of Me

Thursday, June 16, 2011

dont know

Sometimes I just don't know how it got to this
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and undo it all
Would you do it all the same
Would you still give me life
Would I still take it knowing what I know
Cause sometimes the past will catch up to the future
And sometimes I wish that it would hurry
Would we do it all the same
Baby I just don't know
Loving you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do
Everyone comes with baggage but dang
Just dang sometimes I just don't know
This baggage is here and I cant hide it
It wont fit in the closest like an old suit case
Its the old lady standing next to me cackling in my face
Its the old man pointing to laugh
I know I'd still take it
But I just don't know, I just don't know

Friday, April 15, 2011

Memories

Memories are just memories

Little pieces of our past

Memories are just memories

They never really last

We can think of the good

Or we can think of the bad

No matter which we think of

They will make us sad

But remember the good honey

Remember what we had

Remember the good honey

And maybe you’ll be glad

I’ve lived a wonderful life so far

I’ve seen amazing things

I’ve lived a wonderful life so far

I’ve ridden on angel’s wings

When I think of my memories

I remember the laughter and the tears

When I think of my memories

I see the smiles and the fears

Cause no matter what happens

I cling to the good ones

NO matter what happens

I know that I have won

Memories are just memories

Little pieces of our past

Memories are just memories

They never really last

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

For Mark

I wrote this 2 weeks ago for my husband & didn't plan on posting it until he got a chance to read it since we're going through a rough time. But in light of everything that is going on in my marriage and with me personally I've decided that I'm going to post it anyway. I really love this one and I hope that one day he does too.

I’ve never felt a love like this before

I’ve never wanted to give myself away

Hand my heart over not knowing where it goes

I’ve never felt like this before

Sometimes I get lost in your eyes

In the touch of your hand against mine

Sometimes I get lost in the smell of your skin

In the feel of our bodies entwined

I’ve never felt a love like this before

It’s so damn confusing

So damn alluring

I’ve never felt a love like this before

Sometimes I get lost in the sound of your voice

In the memories of the past

Sometimes I get lost in the beat of your heart

In the snoring that doesn’t last

I’ve never felt so in love before

Before you walked into my life

Before you touched my hand and kissed my lips

No, no, I’ve never felt a love like this before

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Searching, longing

Wrote this like 5 mins ago... I'm totally in a writing mood so I expect more to come.

Searching, longing for something more

Something you might not be able to give me

Searching, longing for something more

Something that might not be

Nothing can shake this feeling

This feeling of regret

Nothing can shake this feeling

This feeling of yet

What is yet to come

What is yet to be

What is yet to come

What is yet to be seen

Searching, longing for something more

Standing here waiting for you

Searching, longing for something more

Standing here enjoying the view

I wonder what will happen

What will happen to my pain

I wonder what will happen

What will there be to gain

So long we have not spoken

Not spoken about us

So long we have not spoken

Not spoken about what was

Searching, longing for something more

Something you might not be able to give me

Searching, longing for something more

Something that might not be

Monday, April 11, 2011

OLD Poetry

I wrote all of these back in 2008. Some of them have dates at the end and some don't. But I know that they were all in 2008.

IT HAPPENED AGAIN

It happened again I let trust in

Oh what a fickle love affair we have

Like antifreeze in my coffee you burn me deep

Thoughts to wander hidden chambers in my brain

The long dark hallway painted gray with pain

Doors bolted shut would reveal a past thrice forgotten

Liars, cheats, and thieves do deceive a trust so freely given

To abolish a trust hurts not more

Then to demolish the love handed with it

I keep but a circle tightly woven

One thread will not unravel the lot

Burn the end off leave it for dead

The true circle will never be broken

Written 8/9/08

TOO MANY

Too many nights spent tear streaked cheeks

Unsure how it got to this

Wine glass in hand pills strewn across the counter

What a lonely picture painted in my head

So simply heartbreakingly sad

Yet such a painful release across the graceful face

A longing for an end yes but not such as that

The end in sight just a rough

Downers foreseen in an uncertain future full of hope and love

Oh if just once an up could last as long as a down

But the duck sits in the middle of the pond

Wary to look over its shoulder fearful of what was once unseen

Written 8/9/08

LONGING

Longing so now forgotten

Not to touch you or to hear a voice forgiving

Forgiveness given so selfishly

Is only to pass through the ear on a whisper

Whisper such words to oneself

See how far that has gotten

Do you not long for a peace once forgotten

Sadly I must say I wish for thy apology

But my forgiveness will be given with a dead heart

Hurt so badly as I have been how could one expect more

Should forgiveness it will be received with a deaf ear

A deaf ear from a dead heart

As I do care now but will train to let it be

Simpler it is for me to care about you

All good things come in time

Written 8/30/08

FEELINGS HURT

Try so hard to do all the right

Try so hard to have a heart light

Wonder and grace mix with sorrow

But what can be said to help through it all

Nothing to hurt nothing to fall

But lightness to see a heart broken

Darkness to leave everything unspoken

Wonder and grace mix with sorrow

Ever to wonder ever to think

Ever to whisper cries in sleep

Written date UNKNOWN

JUST DON'T KNOW

I can’t get past the thought in my head

To many choices to choose from

Someone please tell me what to do

I’ve never felt so alone in a world so full

To many emotions

To many people could get hurt

How do you know you’ve chosen the right path

There are so many to choose from

I want to do the right thing by everyone

But what if my right thing isn’t your right thing

What if I hurt your feelings

In return it hurts mine

We’ve come so far to feel so far apart

I guess we’ll talk through it a year or two down the road

We’ll continue to do and say the right things in the wrong way

But in the end we’ll know it was all done in love

Written date UNKNOWN

I FEEL LIKE CRYING

I just want to cry today

Cry for what comes to pass

Cry for the life that once was

Cry for the life that will never be

Cry for all the right reasons

Cry in all the wrong ways

So much hate built up in side

Hate for the yesterday

Hate for the today

Hate for the inevitable

Hate for everything that ever was

Hate for everything that will ever be

Sad love song in my head

Play a tune with me

Play a song to make me smile

Play a song to make me cry

Play a song to make me hate

Play a song to help me forget everything

I feel like crying a lot today

Maybe tomorrow it will come

Date written: UNKNOWN

I Wanna Get Back to The Heart of Me

I wanna get back to the heart of me

I wanna get back to the heart of us, baby

The past is in the past and the present is breaking my heart

The future is still to be seen

But baby I wanna get back to the heart of me

The heart of me is where I should be

No more torture, no more pain

No baby, my heart can’t take it

I wanna get back to the heart of me

I wanna get back to the heart of us, baby

But baby I need you to get back to the heart of you

I need you to be the man you should be

I need you to be the man of the past and the man of my future

Cause right now baby the present is breaking my heart

I wanna get back to the heart of me

Oh yeah yeah the heart of me is where I should be.